Happy?

Its been awhile i did updating...
if i were to say im busy, BEDEK uhhh...
im just to lazy larhh ~hahaha!!
so far, bits doing fine ~ bits doing better ~ and the rest are the same.

:)Boyfriend.Work.Collegues.Friends(:

Although the childish quarell we had. how irritating you or me can be.
You will always give in for me. You wont fail to make me smile , laugh and u will never make me fall!!*giggles* only you and me know!! *winks*
XOXO

Work as pernormal the SAME.
admission.elective.operation.callbells.parameters.iv drips.sponging.URINE.changing diapers. (that is what i did almost everyday)
Sometimes i do think that im just the same as a maid = slaves.
you noe Y!!?
patients for example the one who can ambulate just taking advantage.
"Do this! Do that!"
and the staff nurses have this habit to just instruct us to do almost everything.
"Yana, boleh tolong nie tak?, boleh tolong tu tak?!"
CB. y cant you stop ur report for awhile n do it. urgh.
Sometime i do have this thoughts; untill when will i do this kind of job??
when i look at my SEN, i pity myself if i grow old, will i become the same like her?
@#$%^.

SO i did some searching.
and i randomly applied SPF.
(:
so witing time, almost a month and i get shortlisted!!
yeaa..!! BUT........
i got so many questions left unanswered.
i got support from my dad , BF , frens to go for the interview.
i appreciate it alot but.....
my physical looks and stamina make me hold back.
im a low self-esteem person and i get dissappointed easily when come to the things i do want badly and i didnt get it.

i had this chance, shall i grab it? or just continue with my nursing journey.
):